depression.

“Depression does not always mean
beautiful girls shattering at the wrists
a glorified, heroic  b a t t l e  for your sanity
or mothers that never got the chance to say good-bye

Sometimes depression means
not getting out of bed for three days
because your feet refuse to believe
that they will not  s h a t t e r  upon impact with the floor

Sometimes depression means
that summoning the  w i l l p o w e r
to go downstairs and do the laundry
is the most  i m p r e s s i v e  thing you accomplish that week

Sometimes depression means
lying on the floor staring at the ceiling for hours
because you cannot  c o n v i n c e  your body
that it is capable of movement

Sometimes depression means
not being able to write for weeks
because the only words you have to offer the world
Are  t r a p p e d  and  d r o w n i n g
and I swear to God I’m trying

Sometimes depression means
that every single bone in your body  a c h e s
but you have to keep going through the motions
because you are not allowed to call in to work depressed
Sometimes depression means
 i g n o r i n g  every phone call for an entire month
because yes
they have the right number
but you’re  n o t  the person
they’re looking for
not anymore. ”

twentysixscribbles, Teen Ink: November 2013 Issue