lose you.

I used to think
I couldn't go a day
without your  s m i l e
without telling you things
and  h e a r i n g  your voice back

Then that day  a r r i v e d 
and it was so damn hard
but the next was  h a r d e r 

And i knew
with a  s i n k i n g  feeling

It was going to get  w o r s e
and I wasn't going to be okay
for a very long time

Because losing someone
isn't an  o c c a s i o n  or an event

It doesn't just happen once
It happens over and over  a g a i n

I  l o s e  you
every time I pick up your favourite coffee mug
whenever that one song plays on the radio
or when I discover your old t-shirt
at the bottom of my laundry pile

I lose you
every time I think of  k i s s i n g  you
holding you or wanting you

I go to bed at night
and  l o s e  you
when I wish I could tell you
about my day

And in the morning
when I wake and reach
for the  e m p t y  space across the sheets

I  b e g i n
to lose you all over again.


- Lang Leav

dulling:

candentia:

Gemma Ward in 'Magnificent Excess'
Photographer: Mario Sorrenti
Corset and veil: Comme des Garçons F/W 2005/06
Vogue Italia September 2005

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(Credits to or8)